Like sunlight burning at midnight.

So , how bout. Brian came and visited me today. and i'm like freakin out and getting all excited and stuff. and then. erica and amanda come too! i didn't even know!! they're soo great people! Lolllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll. i'm sitting here with erica, and i'm just really happy.


like,...this has been the best day since ihop. and that was the last best day i had. .. yeah.





:) :)

Someday..

Album: My Paper Heart
Artist: Francesca Battistelli

I wanna be the one who knows everything about you
I wanna be the one who’s always on your mind
I wanna be the one to get all of your affection and attention
You’re the one that I’ve been waiting for, for all this time

And I can’t imagine anything, anything better than

Someday falling in love with you
Holding your hand
Making our plans all come true
Someday under a sky so blue
I’ll give you my heart
Our story will start
Someday soon

I wanna be the one who does everything with you
Watching stars, washing cars, taking walks, going to the store
I wanna be the one who gets to change her last name someday
To something that sounds something more like yours

Someday falling in love with you
Holding your hand
Making our plans all come true
Someday under a sky so blue
I’ll give you my heart
Our story will start
Someday soon

Yeah I’ll be telling you I love you
On a picture perfect day
And those words inside my head
They sound like angels singing praise
It’s what I was made to say

Homesick.

My week in tenn. has been absolutley wondertabulous. but i'm soooo ready for jesup. what bothers me is that i still have finals when i go back to ponte vedra. and i'm dreading going back there more than anything in the entire world. i just want to run away to ihop get a job, take online classes, then live there until i get on my feet.

but new years is coming up soon. and my lovie chael and his entire family are coming to my house for new years, then i'm going to jesup to chill with all my buds for the weekend. then once again, back to the stuck up hell hole.

i'm excited. next week should really good. my family is really blessed. so yeah, i really don't have anything to do but whine, so i think i'll just stop while i'm ahead.

i'm thinking about studying abroad next year. new zealand with sam? i'm gonna start the research. yay.

Cold Weather and maybe a little too much estrogen.

So, i'm in Tennessee with my lovely family. it's been good so far. 5 girls, two moms, and one 7 year old boy with one uncle/dad all in one house. it's crazy times. us girls are all some what emotional, but i am realizing that we won't always be able to spend this much time with each other. so i'm trying to make it go by as slow as possible. taking every opportunity.

i have a horrible head cold and i just slept my brains out for a couple hours or so, and now I'm going to go sit by the cool gas fire. i'm excited for christmas, it's gonna be a great day for my brother. haha.


times after christmas will be getting alot tighter, but hey. i'm going to make these next two weeks go by great. i'm excited. wooooooo.



so yeah, happy holidays everyone. this was a pointless post. i'm going to go sneeze the rest of my body fluid out now. hahah.


Happy Early B-day, jesus. :)

p.s. (lactoseintolerationSUCKSBUTT.)

If I had to choose an earthly hero

It'd SO be my mom. She puts up with all the crap i give her, and yet she still gives me tons of grace. she's a worry wart, has like no sense of humor, but yet somehow laughs to the point of crying at everything i say. anddd, for an early christmas present she gave me a christmas edition of coke bottles to add to my collection. and then she gave me superchic[k], 33 miles, bethany dillon acoustic, and parachute bands new cds. SHE'S MY FAVORITE. AND . she prayed me home last night, otherwise i'd probably still be running around Brunswick,Georgia by myself lost with no phone( cuz it was dead.)

Yeah, i'm suchhh a loser. I'm normally really good with directions. but after i went to b-wick last night to go eat and see a movie with joshua i got lost. i saw the sign saying 95, but it was 95 north not south. so i headed to savannah. i got off on the next exit, and couldn't find any signs saying 95 south, so i went ALLL the way across brunswick, ( about a thirty minute drive ) to find the interstate. all the time josh is freakkking out calling my mom . but, Life lesson learned, when it's dark outside and you aren't sure, don't do it . just look at the sign again, then do it.

and don't leave your battery dead when you're going on a trip.



have a wonderful day world! i'm going to pack, listen to my new cd's and sleep since the annoying brother and friends woke me up by screaming outside my door for an hour or so.


Merry Christmas.

here's my life.

once again i said my goodbyes
to those i love most
my heart feels that familiar pain
as i long for home
cause this road is hard
when i feel so far

Chorus:
And God i'm crying out tonight
cause i've givin you my life
but im tired and im missing whats behind
so once more heres my life


on the day that you called my name
all that i knew changed
I found when i said yes
that i
would never be the same
though the call is hard
you are worth it all

Chorus
and God Im crying out tonight
cause ive givin you my life
but im tired and im missing whats behind
so once more....

even when the tears are falling
when i find i fear the calling you
remind me, (yeah)
words you've spoken over my life
promises ive yet to see
you comfort me. (yeah yeah)




(seriously the story of my life. )

Have you ever come to the point..

where you look around you, and you're just like... GOD. why am I here? well. i do. haha. i know i seem incredibly selfish at this holiday season when everyone is going through alot more than I am.

but, everything that i do. everything that i walk through in my life . it just seems so dry . i'm having the hardest time in the world adjusting to this new lifestyle, and it's just.. hard. i just keep asking God, why here? why did you send my family to a town smaller than my old dinky town, full of people that dress up and flaunt their money around , while i run around in converses, my hair up and am completely moneyless. i'm just.. ugh.


but. He knows all. and he is so just. smart. that seems like such a dull word to describe him as, but it's just the word that came to mind. because he just.. knows. all. he says, Christina. you're not here for you. you're here to serve.

i walk around, and i see so many hurting people. and i have no idea about going and fixing things, but I am willing to slowly get past my pride, and stick my head out a little bit.

someone once told me that you have to fall to your lowest point to where you're absolutely rock bottom, and you can't get and worse to be able to reach for help and pick yourself up. well i don't think my life has come to the absolute miserable, i'm very blessed. but i do think that my relationship with God has become so incredibly dry, and i've slid back pretty far from where I was so far, that it's now time to get a reality grip on life, and just trust him. my mom also said to me today that when i was in my old town, with all my friends, that it was always easy because i didn't have to lean on God, i could lean on my friends, my family, and pretty much anyone possible, or even material things. but now, our family is here, i have like one friend, and let's just say her gift isn't lifting people up. so now i am pretty much forced to lean on God or just.. . be lonely or miserable. which, has been my life the past 5 or 6 months. living in self pity, waiting to go visit friends, and hoping that my life will get better, although i'm doing nothing to fix it. haha.


i'm such a silly girl!

and i'm reallly glad no one is going to read this. because i'm selfish. foolish. and i'm going to get my life right. so now i'm going to go sleep off this horrible headache that i've had for the past week, and chill with my main man Jesus.


have a wonderful night, world.


may ever broken heart be filled with his joy.

♥