So, wow.

Life has been going pretty flowsome.

i dunno, man. these past weeks have been going by ohhh so fast. and i can't tell whether it's a good thing or a bad thing.

I was talking to Brian about it, and it's like i'm having a minor identity crisis. not really internally. But i don't really feel that i belong. . any where. i don't want to go back to Jesup to live, although i would be much more comfortable by a major jump. I enjoy florida, but I haven't really found any one to make me want to stay here, although i have started making small relationships. But then again, when i think about it. . . i don't really wanna go anywhere else. it's just.. confusing.

and i think about it, and I realize sometimes it's just not always about me. This time of mine in florida could all just be about witnessing to people and really learning about myself and God all through my lonesomeness. I think that if i was anywhere else, God wouldn't have my attention, although he still fully hasn't gotten my head turned completely straight.

I'm a confused, sorta lonely, anxious, but longing for so much more kinda girl.

so, in conclusion, a song. :) one of my recent fav's. learned how to play it on geetar. it's actually pretty simple, so i was excited by that. anyways, here comes the jam.


Satisfy
Tenth Avenue North

Before the sun has touched the sky
Colors bursting from Your eyes
Before the flood of the morning light
Before the earth has felt Your heat
Before I stand up to my feet
Before I begin to feel this weak

Satisfy me Lord, oh oh
Satisfy me Lord, oh oh
I'm begging You, to help me see
You're all I want, You're all I need
Oh, satisfy me Lord

When the day is closing in
Like the stars in the night I am falling
Into the pull of the earth and it's affection
In me, oh lord, can you create
A pure heart cuz I'm afraid
That I just might run back to the things I hate

Satisfy me Lord, oh oh
Satisfy me Lord, oh oh
Yeah, I'm begging You, to help me see
You're all I want, You're all I need
Oh, satisfy me Lord

You're beautiful, You're beautiful
You're more than all this world can give
You're beautiful, You're beautiful
You're love is all I need to live
You're beautiful, You're beautiful
You're more than all this world can give
You're beautiful, more beautiful
You're love is all I need to live