Like sunlight burning at midnight.

So , how bout. Brian came and visited me today. and i'm like freakin out and getting all excited and stuff. and then. erica and amanda come too! i didn't even know!! they're soo great people! Lolllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll. i'm sitting here with erica, and i'm just really happy.


like,...this has been the best day since ihop. and that was the last best day i had. .. yeah.





:) :)

Someday..

Album: My Paper Heart
Artist: Francesca Battistelli

I wanna be the one who knows everything about you
I wanna be the one who’s always on your mind
I wanna be the one to get all of your affection and attention
You’re the one that I’ve been waiting for, for all this time

And I can’t imagine anything, anything better than

Someday falling in love with you
Holding your hand
Making our plans all come true
Someday under a sky so blue
I’ll give you my heart
Our story will start
Someday soon

I wanna be the one who does everything with you
Watching stars, washing cars, taking walks, going to the store
I wanna be the one who gets to change her last name someday
To something that sounds something more like yours

Someday falling in love with you
Holding your hand
Making our plans all come true
Someday under a sky so blue
I’ll give you my heart
Our story will start
Someday soon

Yeah I’ll be telling you I love you
On a picture perfect day
And those words inside my head
They sound like angels singing praise
It’s what I was made to say

Homesick.

My week in tenn. has been absolutley wondertabulous. but i'm soooo ready for jesup. what bothers me is that i still have finals when i go back to ponte vedra. and i'm dreading going back there more than anything in the entire world. i just want to run away to ihop get a job, take online classes, then live there until i get on my feet.

but new years is coming up soon. and my lovie chael and his entire family are coming to my house for new years, then i'm going to jesup to chill with all my buds for the weekend. then once again, back to the stuck up hell hole.

i'm excited. next week should really good. my family is really blessed. so yeah, i really don't have anything to do but whine, so i think i'll just stop while i'm ahead.

i'm thinking about studying abroad next year. new zealand with sam? i'm gonna start the research. yay.

Cold Weather and maybe a little too much estrogen.

So, i'm in Tennessee with my lovely family. it's been good so far. 5 girls, two moms, and one 7 year old boy with one uncle/dad all in one house. it's crazy times. us girls are all some what emotional, but i am realizing that we won't always be able to spend this much time with each other. so i'm trying to make it go by as slow as possible. taking every opportunity.

i have a horrible head cold and i just slept my brains out for a couple hours or so, and now I'm going to go sit by the cool gas fire. i'm excited for christmas, it's gonna be a great day for my brother. haha.


times after christmas will be getting alot tighter, but hey. i'm going to make these next two weeks go by great. i'm excited. wooooooo.



so yeah, happy holidays everyone. this was a pointless post. i'm going to go sneeze the rest of my body fluid out now. hahah.


Happy Early B-day, jesus. :)

p.s. (lactoseintolerationSUCKSBUTT.)

If I had to choose an earthly hero

It'd SO be my mom. She puts up with all the crap i give her, and yet she still gives me tons of grace. she's a worry wart, has like no sense of humor, but yet somehow laughs to the point of crying at everything i say. anddd, for an early christmas present she gave me a christmas edition of coke bottles to add to my collection. and then she gave me superchic[k], 33 miles, bethany dillon acoustic, and parachute bands new cds. SHE'S MY FAVORITE. AND . she prayed me home last night, otherwise i'd probably still be running around Brunswick,Georgia by myself lost with no phone( cuz it was dead.)

Yeah, i'm suchhh a loser. I'm normally really good with directions. but after i went to b-wick last night to go eat and see a movie with joshua i got lost. i saw the sign saying 95, but it was 95 north not south. so i headed to savannah. i got off on the next exit, and couldn't find any signs saying 95 south, so i went ALLL the way across brunswick, ( about a thirty minute drive ) to find the interstate. all the time josh is freakkking out calling my mom . but, Life lesson learned, when it's dark outside and you aren't sure, don't do it . just look at the sign again, then do it.

and don't leave your battery dead when you're going on a trip.



have a wonderful day world! i'm going to pack, listen to my new cd's and sleep since the annoying brother and friends woke me up by screaming outside my door for an hour or so.


Merry Christmas.

here's my life.

once again i said my goodbyes
to those i love most
my heart feels that familiar pain
as i long for home
cause this road is hard
when i feel so far

Chorus:
And God i'm crying out tonight
cause i've givin you my life
but im tired and im missing whats behind
so once more heres my life


on the day that you called my name
all that i knew changed
I found when i said yes
that i
would never be the same
though the call is hard
you are worth it all

Chorus
and God Im crying out tonight
cause ive givin you my life
but im tired and im missing whats behind
so once more....

even when the tears are falling
when i find i fear the calling you
remind me, (yeah)
words you've spoken over my life
promises ive yet to see
you comfort me. (yeah yeah)




(seriously the story of my life. )

Have you ever come to the point..

where you look around you, and you're just like... GOD. why am I here? well. i do. haha. i know i seem incredibly selfish at this holiday season when everyone is going through alot more than I am.

but, everything that i do. everything that i walk through in my life . it just seems so dry . i'm having the hardest time in the world adjusting to this new lifestyle, and it's just.. hard. i just keep asking God, why here? why did you send my family to a town smaller than my old dinky town, full of people that dress up and flaunt their money around , while i run around in converses, my hair up and am completely moneyless. i'm just.. ugh.


but. He knows all. and he is so just. smart. that seems like such a dull word to describe him as, but it's just the word that came to mind. because he just.. knows. all. he says, Christina. you're not here for you. you're here to serve.

i walk around, and i see so many hurting people. and i have no idea about going and fixing things, but I am willing to slowly get past my pride, and stick my head out a little bit.

someone once told me that you have to fall to your lowest point to where you're absolutely rock bottom, and you can't get and worse to be able to reach for help and pick yourself up. well i don't think my life has come to the absolute miserable, i'm very blessed. but i do think that my relationship with God has become so incredibly dry, and i've slid back pretty far from where I was so far, that it's now time to get a reality grip on life, and just trust him. my mom also said to me today that when i was in my old town, with all my friends, that it was always easy because i didn't have to lean on God, i could lean on my friends, my family, and pretty much anyone possible, or even material things. but now, our family is here, i have like one friend, and let's just say her gift isn't lifting people up. so now i am pretty much forced to lean on God or just.. . be lonely or miserable. which, has been my life the past 5 or 6 months. living in self pity, waiting to go visit friends, and hoping that my life will get better, although i'm doing nothing to fix it. haha.


i'm such a silly girl!

and i'm reallly glad no one is going to read this. because i'm selfish. foolish. and i'm going to get my life right. so now i'm going to go sleep off this horrible headache that i've had for the past week, and chill with my main man Jesus.


have a wonderful night, world.


may ever broken heart be filled with his joy.

♥

At least I'm not a starving child in Africa.

I haven't written in a while. so i decided today should be the day.

Thanksgiving was extremely different. but all together really good for my family.

we had a loner thanksgiving. my aunt and my cousin missed their first thanksgiving with us in literally.. years. and the fact of us living in like.. a beach house in the warm sunshine state, well. it was different. my cousin had a baby the day before thanksgiving. she's a beautiiiful child. rhylee jane, i think that's how it's spelled.

anyways, we took family pictures, mainly of me, my sister, and my brother. had a wonderful meal, and watched football and lord of the rings.

black friday was GREAT!. my parents got us a brand new christmas tree, saying that our other tree was older than my mom. haha. not really. but still. anyways, we decorated the tree. then we went shopping for all our christmas presents. me and mir picked out stuff that we wanted. then mom and dad bought it, and it will sit under the tree until christmas. yay!

but one thing that really saddens me. is the freaking greed in this country. people are so ridiculous. a worker at walmart in new york got KILLED by a mob of people. like, are you kidding me? how do you not notice someone lying on the ground dying? it's sickening. which has made me realize, that it's not at about me . who really cares about presents . the main thing i'm excited about is getting to see my family that i get to see once a year. :) :) and getting past finals. cuz that is just something i'm not looking forward to. because.. well. i've never taken a final before. and i have no idea how to realy study for one. eek.

so, i'm starting early. and studying hardcore. i won't be going home until christmas break. so i can focus focus focus.

then i get to go have a Tennessee christmas. :D . i think that's all i have to share for now.

oh, i reallllly wish my aunt , uncle, and baby cousin were home. they're stationed in Germany right now. and i am vurry sad. :/ no christmas with them this year. hah. which is why i should go visit them next summer! what a great idea.

that's all for now, world.

Happy Holidays. Merry Christmas Time. Happy Hanukkah, Whatever ya wanna call it.

Sleep & Food Depriving Emergency Rooms

First of all i wanna thank all my friends thank you for praying today. Although prolly no one is reading this, i'm just declaring the love i have for all of my friends right now. It makes me feel cared for.

So, anyways. I shall share my fun story of the day.
I woke up this morning, to my mom breathing hard and freaking out, but in a calm way. She told me that she was having chest pain and now it was radiating down her left arm. and that is never a real good sign. So i'm like freaking out. But she takes my brother to the bus stop, then comes back. ( she's supposed to be leaving to go to atlanta on a women's retreat, so she really doesn't wanna go to the ER.) But I make her go, and we're going. and then we're driving trying to find the hospital, and she's all " Christina if i faint get help. " and i'm like DON'T SAY THAT AHHH. so we're both on the point of tears.completely stressed out. we get to the er then she gets in within like 5 minutes of us getting there which is a complete miracle saying that emergency rooms normally take forever to get you in. thank the lord. but they get her in i text like everyone in the world asking for prayer. and the prayer worked. all of her tests came out fine. but somehow all the tests took like from 8:30 to 3:00 so i spent my lovely school day at the emergency room. I've had like soo much stress, and only a pack of peanut butter for lunch, so i'm going to get a HUGEE southern cooked meal, and watch movies while I watch my brother.


I thank God soo much for the clear results, and thank everyone for praying and supporting my family on this hard day. I love all of ya'll.

My weekend and veterans day.

this weekend my lovie joshua came down to visit and we were little rebels. well, not really. but he got his first tattoo! :) it was exhilarating. i was soooooo tempted to get my nose pierced but my daddy would have had a mental break down. but we had a good weekend, watching movies, going to the beach, and being the big losers we are. i watched tons of people surf, and i wanna learn how soo bad.

Then I went to school on monday knowing there wouldn't be school on tuesday. And I love having no school on a random tuesday! Last night me and my friend katie went to target and dinked around, then went and got gas, then went and looked at wedding magazines in books a million. then her friend hannah came, and we went to yogaberry. it was pimppp. and although we didn't do much, we had an awesome time being retarded and hanging out.

another weird thing, we all just moved here, and one is from one side of my family's town, and the other is from my other side of the family's town. weiiird stuff i'm telling you. we were meant to be. haha.

that's all for now. i am now going to continue my movie marathon of oldschool love stories. :)

Oh, i've decided that i want to go live in New Zealand with Sam instead of going to school in u.s. she said she's got room for me ! :D

My thoughts on the past week.

So, a little re-cap real quick. i'm pretty much not too involved in anything in my town. i have friensd, but not too many that i wanna hang out with outside of school. The politics have been going crazy, and we have our first african american president. It's constant bad weather, and i've been getting completely lost on why I am in this petty little town, smaller than the one I was in before.

but really, and for some reason i do not know why, i have been completely at peace about it all. It's incredible. All i want to do is talk to the ones i love the most, have Jesus time, play the guitar, or listen to peaceful acoustic music. I love this feeling! I really think it's from the fact that i recently decided to start trusting God, fully. Rather saying that i did, but really didn't. So, that's really what i'm doing. Who cares if i'm a loner at school, I'm getting things accomplished in God's kingdom. He has a plan. For everything. these next four years with barack, my life in florida, all the way into eternity. So, yeah, man. Rock on with it all. :)


all time favorite song
Kari Jobe

I will sing this in a church some day.

The more I seek you,
The more I find you.
The more I find you,
The more I love you.

I wanna sit at your feet,
drink from the cup in your hand.
lay back against you and breathe,
feel your heartbeat.
this love is so deep,
it's more than I can stand.
I melt in your peace,
it's overwhelming.

The more I seek you,
the more i find you,
the more i find you,
the more i love you.


I wanna sit at your feet,
drink from the cup in your hand.
lay back against you and breathe,
feel your heartbeat.
this love is so deep,
it's more than I can stand.
I melt in your peace,
it's overwhelming.

pro-life.

i was talking to my friend today, and i'm so glad that us teens cannot vote. because i know so many people who have no ideaaaa what they are talking about! it almost angers me.

i listened to a really good radio show the other nigtht that james dobson hosted , and it had a guy who wrote an essay on obama's extremism towards abortion. and it really breaks my heart to know what he will do if he gets to be president.

so, check it out. pleassee.

http://www.thepublicdiscourse.com/viewarticle.php?selectedarticle=2008.10.14_George_Robert_Obama%27s%20Abortion%20Extremism_.xml

Jesus, i plead your blood over my sins
and the sins of my nation.
God, end abortion and send revival to America.

My Three Day Weekend In Jesup, Hick town, Georgia.

Well i had an extremely eventful long weekend. and honestly, i don't know why i'm typing my whole weekend out. but. blogs are fun. and i enjoy letting my feelings out through something that most likely no one will read anyways. haha.

Friday, I drove hurridly to Jesup, and spent the evening with joshua, watching what happens in vegas, and a really funny movie that i can't remember the name of. I found though, that i have a strong liking towards guys with english accents. i don't know why. I then waited on erica to come home from the football game in brunswick, then i left josh's and went to her house to spend the night. we talked reallll late about life, love, stupid girl things, but it actually was really good to talk to someone who understood. although she is a catholic, and we have many differences , we somehow have sooo many things alike in our personalities. it's great.

saturday, we woke up at like freakin 8 oclock and went to babysit my little kids until one. and even though we were ridiculously tired, we had a good time cookin mac'n'cheese and playing hide and go seek throughout the mansion. after that we went to the arch fest and mcdonalds. and met up with andrew, erica's boyfriend, my best friend. I traveled around the place and talked to old friends i had not seen in a while, then made adventures for the next few hours. That night we had a big bonfire with all my close friends and me, andrew, and kara all played the guitar. it sounds like the typical movie cheesey ordeal. but really, it was like such a perfect night. it was cold, the acoustic sound elevated through the air, the sky was clear with abundant stars. it was an amazing night, filled with major fun, mudbogging, screaming , row row row your boat, and many more random advetures.

sunday, i woke up and had a huge breakfast with the 2nd family. the afternoon didn't work out as i plan, cuz me and my best friend got in a pretty major huge fight, and because of my hormonal pissy mood, i made things worse. but eventually i calmed down, and went to my friend wills house and got things off my mind. then blah blah blah, i hung out with people. i spent the night with josh that night, and we watched a documentary about porpuses and dolphins. there was a guy with a scottish accent narrorating, and it was pretty darn funny to watch.

monday, i woke up at 6:00 to go eat breakfast with my friend whom which i just had got done fighting with. it was extremely awkward, and we didn't get to talk long because she had schoool, but it was okay. cuz it brought us back closer again. i then went to the most amazing person evers house, Kalyn Mullis. Which actually was fun, but weird. She lives in my old house, so while hanging out with her i was flooded with constant memories of my child/teen hood. I didn't want to leave when it was time to go. i went back into town, said my goodbye's , then headed back home.

The drive wasn't long at all. the two and a half hours with no music and really no sound at all some how flew by. Now, i'm extremely wasted on like 15 hours of sleep for like.. 3 days. so i'm taking an early night in and going to sleep at 9.

this was extremely long, but now my night is complete. :)

g'night world.

Country Music.

It's my soul music. My roots. Idk. It's just something that i can blast out my window, and it'll make me feel incredibly soo much better.


so, i don't have too much to say. but i will share a good song with ya'll .

I wanna live- Josh Gracin

sometimes I feel like I need to shake myself, to wake myself:
I feel like I'm just sleep walkin' through my life.
It's like I'm swimmin' in an ocean of emotion,
But still, somehow, slowly goin' numb inside.
I don't like who I'm becomin', I know I've gotta do somethin',
Before my life passes right by.

I want to cry like the rain, cry like the rain,
Shine like the sun on a beautiful mornin'.
Sing to the heavens like a church bell ringin',
Fight with the devil an' go down swingin'.
Fly like a bird, roll like a stone,
Love like I ain't afraid to be alone.
Take everything that this world has to give,
I wanna live.

Sometimes I wonder why I work so hard to guard my heart.
Well, I hardly feel anything at all.
I've spent my whole life buildin' up this ivory tower.
And now that I'm in it, I keep wishin' it would fall.
So I can feel the ground beneath me, really taste this air I'm breathin',
And know that I'm alive.

I want to cry like the rain, cry like the rain,
Shine like the sun on a beautiful mornin'.
Sing to the heavens like a church bell ringin',
Fight with the devil an' go down swingin'.
Fly like a bird, roll like a stone,
Love like I ain't afraid to be alone.
Take everything that this world has to give,
I wanna live,
I wanna live.

Somethin' deep inside keeps sayin life is like a vapor,
It's gone in just the twinklin' of an eye.

I want to cry like the rain, cry like the rain,
Shine like the sun on a beautiful mornin'.
Sing to the heavens like a church bell ringin',
Fight with the devil an' go down swingin'.
Fly like a bird, roll like a stone,
Love like I ain't afraid to be alone.
Take everything that this world has to give.
I wanna take every breath I can get,
I wanna live.



goodnight worlld. :)

High School.

I blame those stupid teachers for making me go to pre-school twice. other wise i'd be a senior now.
( fact: in georgia if your birthday is in september and youre 4 in preschool, they make you go to preschool again. ) so i'm all."that's not cool."

i don't really have a full mind tonight. i don't feel good. my back aches. and my head hurts from doing pre-calculus. sheesh!

but i do know one thing. that i have the strongest desire to write a song. chords. lyrics. everything. and although it may take a while. i really want to do it. it's a goal i'm setting to do before christmas. :) so , carry on my wayward son. there'll be peace when you are done.

haha, oh. and. i finally got some honesty out of a friend tonight. and really, it was really. really . really. good to finally know the truth. so. i'm a content young gal tonight.

goodnight world.

Thoughts..

so, i went out for my nightly think session. i sat on my car. put on my hefty jacket, and while the wind blew through my hair and across my face, tears ran down my face. and although things have gotten better in my situation in making friends, i somehow find it incredibly hard to keep on going.

so, i picked up my phone to run to a friend. and something popped into my head that was spoken by a guy at a youth thing i went to saturday night. " the difference between a mature christian and a baby christian , is the mature christian runs to God first, instead of friends or mentors. " It was like a freaking slap in the face. God's sittin there like, " wow, you're really going to call him. over me. kinda like the creator of the universe here..?"and i was like. dude. i'm sorry.

which also triggered another thing. i have major trust issues. and i realized, that if i can't trust God, i can't trust anyone.


so those are my two things to start working on. of course there are freaking many other issues, but i choose those two first. haha.

g'night world. sleep in peace.

So frustrated.

my town is just so.. full of. people. that makes no sense. but. agh. Jesup is full of people influencing my friends to do bad things. and i'm just so sick of it! but anyways, i've got some friends that are really hurting right now. and i loveeee them to death. this song is for you. :)

I know the pain you feel inside
and the tears you try to hide
in your heart you ask God why
Can you help me
will you help me please
Take the away the Pain
with the sun i feel the rain
Then I hear your spirit

say
That I am


Free
free to lift my hands
Free to say Amen
Free to know that someday I will Smile again
i'm Free
Free to laugh not cry
Free to live not die
Because of your love I know that I'm free

Verse2-
I know you're troubled by your past
And you hide behind your mask
the misery it seems to last
Thru the night but it's alright
Joy is just a prayer away
don't look back at yesterday
Then I hear your spirit

say
That I am
Repeat chorus

Bridge-
ohhhh no more pain and lonliness
For Christ has set me free ohhh
For we are more than conquerers
Thru his love now i can see that i am

Jesus has a plan for me.

So I, Christina Coleman, would like to first off welcome you to my blog. Thanks for reading folks. I had another blog, and went to find, it but totally forgot the name of it, so i just made a new one. whoop whoop!

Anyhow, Today was an amazing day. I for the first time ever (since living in Ponte Vedra) hung out with friends tonight. Me and my friend Katie went to a place called zoe's kitchen. it was sorta healthy greek...ish. stuff. idk. it was good. we then headed over to a journey / landrum middle school, and we waited till it started. we then walked in, and found that it was not a concert that we thought we were going to, but it was a worship concert. God completely rocked my world. I had no idea that he would start to involve me in a church on a night when i thought i was just hanging out with friends. But it was just amazing! The night was amazing, and well. life is good.


"praise be to God. " hahahah. that's all for now, folks. i shall now proceed to wake up my mom and butlahhh and watch the redsocks destroy the rays. :) g'night.