SUMMMMMMER, babay.

It's been like three months since i've posted. and. i'm bored. and. i feel like typing.

it's raining. once again. and i just babysat all weekend. it was actually really fun. it made me realize i'm not near ready for kids, but i definitely want them one day.

i have three days of school left.
2 finals tomorrow.
1 final tuesday.
1 final wednesday.
then JESUS CULTURE ON WEDNESDAY NIGHT! youth group is hittin up atl. :)
then the next week i'll be doing vacation bible school at the church.
then the next weekend i'll be celebrating rachel's b-day. :) yay.


so yeah. summer is comin fast. and i'm ooberly excited. that's all really. :) :) :)

Revolution Cry

Increddible Song.
Revolution Cry
LIfehouse does a sick cover of it, but i think it was written by someone with Passion.

when passion takes on a purpose
and searching ones embrace the light
when skeptics find themselves down on their knees
you'll know it's here

when you hear a sound as loud as thunder
and you hear a cry that shakes the ground beneath you
when you hear a shout that shatters the darkness
you'll know it's here

when the lost find a name worth believing in
and the fallen get back onto their feet
and the broken start to dream again
and the sound of hope fills these streets
you'll know it's here

Revolution!!
can you feel it?
revolution cry!
It's a revolution
can you hear it?!
revolution cry!
and I believe it
and I believe it

how long do we have to wait
and how long will we stay silent
will this weeping generation dance again
oh God when will the truth be restored

when the lost find a name worth believing in
and the fallen get back onto their feet
and the broken start to dream again
and the sound of hope fills these streets
you'll know it's here

revolution
can you feel it
revolution cry
revolution
can you hear it
revolution cry, cry

revolution
can you feel it
revolution cry
and I believe it
and I believe it
and I believe it

you'll know it's here
can you feel it

Back to Happiness.

I'm finally getting better, which makes me soooo extremely happy.
These days are passin so extremely fast, which also makes me really happy.
Onething Orlando is coming up soon, and so is spring break, and those both make me really happy.
I don't have school today, which makes me really happy.
So yeah, it's all pretty much happiness.

I just gotta stick it out and get past all these hard tests, but i'll make it. Cuz Jesus is my bff!

So yeah, this was a pretty much pointless blog,but the past one was really ugly and deppressing so i decided to end with a happy note. Now i will go outside, enjoy the wonderful hot weather, and read a really boring book for school.


♥

I only have a couple of things to say.

I hate waffles, I hate depressing movies, i hate being emotional... and i hate that i just didn't capatilize all these i's. i just don't wanna fix em now. it's tooo late.





i hate being sick, also. that's the main thing.
I hateeeeee it.
and i hate being lactose intolerant.
that really bites.








really.

So, wow.

Life has been going pretty flowsome.

i dunno, man. these past weeks have been going by ohhh so fast. and i can't tell whether it's a good thing or a bad thing.

I was talking to Brian about it, and it's like i'm having a minor identity crisis. not really internally. But i don't really feel that i belong. . any where. i don't want to go back to Jesup to live, although i would be much more comfortable by a major jump. I enjoy florida, but I haven't really found any one to make me want to stay here, although i have started making small relationships. But then again, when i think about it. . . i don't really wanna go anywhere else. it's just.. confusing.

and i think about it, and I realize sometimes it's just not always about me. This time of mine in florida could all just be about witnessing to people and really learning about myself and God all through my lonesomeness. I think that if i was anywhere else, God wouldn't have my attention, although he still fully hasn't gotten my head turned completely straight.

I'm a confused, sorta lonely, anxious, but longing for so much more kinda girl.

so, in conclusion, a song. :) one of my recent fav's. learned how to play it on geetar. it's actually pretty simple, so i was excited by that. anyways, here comes the jam.


Satisfy
Tenth Avenue North

Before the sun has touched the sky
Colors bursting from Your eyes
Before the flood of the morning light
Before the earth has felt Your heat
Before I stand up to my feet
Before I begin to feel this weak

Satisfy me Lord, oh oh
Satisfy me Lord, oh oh
I'm begging You, to help me see
You're all I want, You're all I need
Oh, satisfy me Lord

When the day is closing in
Like the stars in the night I am falling
Into the pull of the earth and it's affection
In me, oh lord, can you create
A pure heart cuz I'm afraid
That I just might run back to the things I hate

Satisfy me Lord, oh oh
Satisfy me Lord, oh oh
Yeah, I'm begging You, to help me see
You're all I want, You're all I need
Oh, satisfy me Lord

You're beautiful, You're beautiful
You're more than all this world can give
You're beautiful, You're beautiful
You're love is all I need to live
You're beautiful, You're beautiful
You're more than all this world can give
You're beautiful, more beautiful
You're love is all I need to live

God is my bffl.

You think you're all alone, and then he comes out and is all. "hey, i know where you are. i know you're heart. chill your beans. "

and i'm all. Geeeee.

God introduced me to a family tonight who is a Great Godly family, big with the ihop movement and really incredibly nice. I was just like, wow. and it turns out there is a jax ihop run by alan hoods nephew that just started so i'm gonna start goin on friday nights. i'm sooo excited. ugh, it's incredible.



So, Jesus loves me. this i know. for.. he tells me so! :)


and he's also given me strenght to hold onto what i say i will do. and i've held on. i'm sooo proud of myself. blah. :)

So, this weekend. was so insanely just.. incredible.

we went to a conference with jason upton. and it was just.. wow. he doesn't care about stepping on peoples toes, making people think.

another thing. his new cd, is amazing. i loveeee Jesus.


but basically, to sum it up. I'm free. I'm free.

I Love Imogen Heap.

They're so.. just. ahh. yeah. words can't explain.
Today was good. took my finals, then went to mcdonals with my mommy. then we played wii at the house. it was pimpdizzzzzzle.

Going to Jason Upton Conference tomorrow. Our youth group and him are gonna chill. pimppp.

I just got done washing and cleaning my car, and it's awesome. i'm listening to speeding cars. it's awesome.


yeah, this has been random. but i'm happy. so it's cool. a;sldkfja;sldkj! holllller, mayne.

Finals, and Songs that make you cry.

It's not a good mixture. i try to study and i end up laying on my floor crying with that just emotional satisfaction that God is with me. And i love it. (ironically i was listening to God with us by mercy me.) bahaa.

So, God. it's me and you. i'm going to stick this week out. study for finals as daggum hard. and really try to do better next semester. ha. i defff. need prayer to make it through this week. but after this it will be a huge releif. these are the days to see how strong i am. and out of my stubbornness i shall be strong. not even that but i did the thing that i had been really needing to do. finally became single. i haven't been focused at all on God. more my self pity and my boyfriend. well. Boys are gone. schools going to be a slight easier since it'll be the beginning of the semester. and maybe i'll get some time really to myself. not like i wasn't alone or anything else last semester. geez. i'm such a door knob. haha.


i really do love these blogs, typing to the world that doesn't hear or see, but i can still share my feelings, in an organized way other than just thinking.


going to study now. iljesus. :) haha.

p.s. i want a camera . badly.

It's a new day.

I haven't posted on this thing since last year! hahah.

finals are next week, which annoys me. cuz i mean. who wants christmas break knowing they have to come back and take freakin finals!? no one, i tell you. no one.

but it's a new year. so my resolution is to have a better attitude about everything that comes my way. which shouldn't be a problem cuz i'll be busy for the next month or so. i finish this week up studying, then this weekend my sissy is coming home and we're going back to jesup to visit friends and family. then the next week i have finals wednesday , thursday, and friday, which means monday and tuesday are total cram days. haha. but all those days i get out at like... 12. so friday afternoon i leave for Jesup again, but only long enough to get on a van with all my church buds and go to milledgeville to host a jason upton conference. we're helping out, cuz our good friends mom is speaking and we invited jason, therefore he's leadingworship and stuff. it'll be fantastic. then that next monday i have school off so i'll prolly chill in brunswick with joshua, then go home.then i have a three more days of school before i have ANOTHER day off. that's when everything slows down. but i'm getting a job in the nursery at my church, and there's a homeschooler girl that's 17. i'm hoping it will be another kalyn situation. haha. :)



speaking of which. for christmas i got her a horton hears a who board game. it's pretty much pimptastic.


anyways.




life is good. (eterrnal life is bettttter. haha.)


peace out mayneeees.